Grandma (my paternal grandmother), i called her Ma Ma for years... give it a thought, and i just realised that she had passed away for nearly 6 years. Time flies...
Went to a dinner tonight. Mama's best friend was invited. She was like 1 year younger than Mama. I wonder how life would be if Mama was still here. I just never have this thought, ever. But tonight, I can't help thinking about it. Having her around is one of the things that i wish i could get.
We talked about her when we sent Gu ma home... remembering how she would be if she was going to have her birthday dinner. How she would be nagging me to fix her pin, her scarf and her handbag. Memories just rushed into my head, as if i could still smell her room, look into her face, and peep into her drawer. memories so vivid that only dementia or amnesia could take it away. And for once, with all these memories flashing in my mind, i could smile. I know i miss her, but i know life moved on. she would be part of me. and I know i would never forget about her. She is just too nice a woman to be forgotten. Too dearly of a grandma for me not to miss.
I wonder how life would be. I hope she could share everything in my life. but after all, i know she is. just that she is looking after me, somewhere she is happy and peaceful... and one day, i know i would join her... hm, i just hope that she could still recognize me becoz i would be AGING!!!
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